So what motivates me? I'm not sure. Sometimes I don't feel that anything motivates me anymore. Maybe it's just the lack of caffeine speaking? I really try to be healthy. But then I eat. Today -- so far so good. I did workout. But I have acid reflux and it's gross. I just really want it to stop. I took prilosec this a.m. for the first time. Wha't with the "natural" remedies that tell you to drink apple cider vinegar. Hello! It's caused by too much acid, not too little. Gross!! Sometimes I feel 100 years old. I want to be motivated. Okay, perhaps stick to the list. Let's just give that a try. One day at a time. I did work out today. That was good. Is there any reason not to be healthy? Is there any reason to choose the cookie instead of the apple? No. Absolutely not. A minute on the lips, forever on the hips. Or in my case, stomach. I have to be brutally honest with myself. I have to be organized. Together. Today. I have to get better sleep so that I can do all of those things. So -- I have to get this acid reflux stuff under control. And btw -- my house is a mess!! Why can't I be a stepford wife and just get it all done. It bugs me, but I still don't get it done. Get it done!!

Day One

Non oggi -- not today. The story of my life. Maybe tomorrow. That diet -- tomorrow, because I'm stressed, that food looks too good, I'm really hungry, I can't think about it right now. Blah, blah, blah. Get organized -- tomorrow. Journal -- tomorrow. Manage my finances -- tomorrow. NO MORE! I'm 47 years old. Tomorrow is today!! I will take control. TODAY. I will change the way I eat. TODAY. I will meditate. TODAY. I will journal. TODAY. I will love life. TODAY. I will learn Italian. Well...maybe tomorrow! Non oggi? Nient'altro. I can be the change. TODAY. OGGI.